The days are lengthening again and we eat dinner in daylight. Christmas decorations adorn the shops and Ruby is alternating between asking how many days until her birthday and how many days until Christmas. She believes that people who have their birthdays in June have a shorter time between one birthday and the next, than those who's birthdays are in late December. And I suppose it must seem that way, with nothing to break up the year, just one bunched up celebration hidden amongst the busiest time of the year.

Ruby had her renal DMSA scan done last week and we were relieved that all the results came back normal. We just have to maintain a higher level of observation with her and treat any possible UTI's promptly- which is nothing different from what I already do.

I have finished in the Birthing Unit for the time being and I am so, so glad. Coming back into the antenatal clinic and going out on community midwifery again has further cemented my feelings that that's the area I belong in. I am always exhausted at the end of the day, but in a good way, I feel that I have been clinically sound, that I have helped people and, probably most importantly, that I have contributed to the team. It's a good feeling. I've also spoken to lots and lots of other midwives who feel exactly as I do. These are all people I look up to, so it's a relief to know that it's completely ok to not really want to devote my career to the birthing of babies. I want to devote my career to the care of women and babies before birth and after birth, help women breastfeed, help families cope with the changes in their lives, help educate women on the amazing ways their bodies work. I'm hoping that once I finish this graduate year that is what I will be doing.